Liz Curtis Higgs promotion of her new book, It’s Good to be Queen, caught my attention on twitter. She talked about boldness, and I think the reason it stood out was because I’ve been feeling funny about that word lately, and I haven’t been able to put my finger on the reason. So, of course, I had to watch her video about being bold.
When Liz spoke of her speaking encounter it struck me, that she found that out of 600 women she was speaking too, only 3 raised their hands admitting a desire to be bold. And I wonder if I would have raised my hand. Boldness can feel like such a tricky thing. And Liz’s words are helping me understand the conflict in my own heart.
Liz spoke of the two kinds of boldness. As a person saved by grace, I can live a boldness that comes from the Lord, but I can also live a boldness that comes from my own sinful flesh.
When Liz asked the women she spoke with why (as it seemed) they didn’t want to be bold, they gave answers saying they didn’t want to come across too forward. They didn’t want to make too much of themselves.
And I think as Liz spoke out on this, she identified a fear in my own heart. The reason it’s hard to live in the boldness of Jesus is because I’m afraid people will misunderstand my motives. I’m afraid that people will think I’m living out of the boldness of my own flesh.
It’s easy to justify living in this kind of fear because I can simply tell myself that I’m being humble, but often that’s not the truth at all, and in fact I’m living in fear of what Jesus put on my heart to do. Instead of being humble, I’m avoiding the risk of having people think that I’m not humble.
Perhaps the best ways that the boldness of Jesus will be lived out in me may come out with pieces of my own fleshly motives. And perhaps God is reminding me that the only way I can let His light come through me is by relying on Him in prayer and faith.
Today I’m challenged to live in prayer and listen to the Spirit. “For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.” (2 Tim. 1:7 NIV) Children of God, may we live in the boldness of the Spirit inside us, embracing the freedom that the Spirit provides from our own flesh. May we live boldness like We Are Found. (Phil. 3:9)
This is Day 2 in 31 Days of Listening