“Because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.” (John 15:19)
Today I’m telling you how I am blessed by Aliza Latta’s blog post: A prayer for the timid and terrified
My humanity keeps repeating itself and my fear comes right along with it. Even if you removed my fear, I know after some length of time I’d simply rip out the stitches from where you unfastened it, and shove it right back inside of me. (Aliza Latta – Choose Brave)
These words I read this morning express the feelings of my weekend so well.
Yesterday, at church I listened to words about guilt and sin that won’t leave, and I thought about my own fear, my own shy. Shy habits have been built into my thoughts with my repeated practice. Sometimes I look at the confident and wonder where they came from that they have so much freedom. But my Nano reminds me that confidence is something that is grown into, not something that people are born with.
“In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)
Confidence can be grown into, because with repeated practice truth can renew shy habits. Aliza’s prayer reminds me of God’s truth.
I do this so often: asking you to take my burdens, and you do. And then I yank them back and clutch them tighter than before. I trust my burdens and fears more than I trust you. Why is this? Why do I convince myself they’re comfortable?
You are not comfortable. But when I search my heart I know I would never be satisfied with serving a comfortable God. (Aliza Latta – Choose Brave)
Comfortable. It describes the place that provides the greatest ease.
When I chase shy, when I hide, this is God’s truth I have to hold: Though living in my shy fears might be the easiest place, easy is not what my soul longs for. When I choose easy, I am refusing to experience the beauty of what happens when I trust the Spirit moving through me.
May I listen to truth in the moments I’m tempted to fear and shy away. May I live confident in the joy that His presence in me brings.
“I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” (John 10:10)
This is Day 12 in 31 Days of Listening.